It’s About Feeling

Sometimes it’s hard to wish that somebody else would like to know how we actually feel. Why is that? Well, more often the answer is as simple as this: We don’t usually know how we feel all the time. But now all I want to tell you is that I’ve grown more and more exhausted in wishing to make people now how I really feel. I even tired of showing them all I really felt when they don’t seem to really care at all. Okay, until this point I am potentially be recognized as an emo, but aren’t we all emo at some points?

I took it from here: http://mommylife.net/archives/2010/01/putting_kids_in.html

I would never come to a thought that I shouldn’t have been too kind and too sincere to people, no. I would still be as I am right now, despite the fact that people will still be able to be an asshole or a saint in front of me. But actually don’t we all want to be treat nicely by people? People treat me good, they’re nice and even some are great people because of their warmth. But still there are some people that we wished to have treated us more nicely, more warmly.

There are some various kinds of warmth that we expect from people. It could be as simple as more smiles from them, or just a better gesture towards us when we talk to them but most of the time all we need is just a simple question about how we really feel at the moment. Of course that simple question is better served with sincerity. And at this point it’s getting quite difficult for some people. We live in a society where people are expected to be kind most of the time. That’s how we don’t always see a kindness as it is. We don’t always meet people who are really kind not because the society expect them to do so. I’m not saying that people like that are rarely found, but it’s only hard to feel sincerity when we have too many preconceptions in our minds about it.

Until now all I’m trying to be is a person who don’t have too many expectations from people around me, from the closest people around. But I have came to a fact that as long as we have minds and feelings inside us, we can not escape from expectation. It helps us to be better persons, expectation keeps us doing efforts to reach what we want to reach and it shapes our civilitations into how it evolved now and it will continue do so. So now I stopped trying to be a man without expectation as it making me more and more exhausted. But expectation also makes me tired in another hand.

So what to do next?

At least by knowing this, I can be more self-assured and become more secured with myself because everybody else also look for the same thing. At the very bottom, I hope (here I share the expectation with you all, guys) that we can ask this question more oftenly to people around us, people that we really care, people that we know in need of it, but never forget to have more sincerity in saying it:

“How do you feel right now?”

a hug would be meaningless without sincerity (taken from http://www.flickr.com/photos/eelssej_/394781835/)